Pressure

09 Oct 2011 1 Comment

by Cindy Partridge in Uncategorized

 

Jason will write his insights into this topic soon (when he’s not preparing and delivering a sermon), but I thought I’d blog where I’m at, and what happened the last week. Please note Jason is 100% OK will me writing this post, we feel it important to be honest and unashamed, for we don’t need to be!

We got the go ahead to try and conceive a baby, but a few things proved a challenge for us both. Jason got sick, to the point he would have coughing fits and throw up, and he’s actually undergone a lot of stress lately, with his boss moving churches, difficult pastoral situations and not to mention the toll that fertility treatment takes.

This meant that when the time came to try, he couldn’t. This was so stressful and shameful for him in itself, the fact you feel the pressure to ‘perform’ as well as all the sickness and stress, just didn’t make conducive baby making conditions!

The staff at the hospital were patient and wonderful, so supportive, reassuring us that this happens a lot. People who undergo fertility treatment are under a great deal of stress and for next time, we can freeze some of Jason’s sperm just in case it happens again. Just as a last resort.

I was really frustrated and upset, not at Jason, but the situation. We were so close, but this hurdle was awful! Since then Jason and I have really bonded, supported each other even more and had lots of time together. We’ve enjoyed reading God’s word and praying HEAPS together.

So it looks like we need to start again in 2 or so weeks.

I’m really thankful

• For another opportunity to have fertility treatment
• For the doctors, nurses and lab people at the hospital especially their dedication and support
• For a kind generous family member that has already given us money for the next round of treatment (to pay for drugs)
• That the treatment was successful, that we’ve found the right dose and I didn’t over stimulate.
• For Jason and my marriage, the strength we feel, and closeness through disappointments and joys

Please pray

• For Jason to recover to 100% health
• For us as we manage stress and strain
• For our marriage
• For me as I wait to start a new course of treatment